Ok . . . here’s the thing: For weeks now, there have been two messages that God keeps bringing to my attention over and over and over again. My problem: I haven’t been too keen on either one! The first one because it scares me to death. The second one because I just plain don’t feel like it and, what’s worse, I don’t want to feel like it. I know that’s bad, but I am trying!
“What are those messages?” I hear you asking.
Well, let me share the first one. In the interest of keeping this blog from being unbearably long, you’ll just have to wait until next Monday to read about the second.
The first time I felt the weight of message #1 was during a worship service on Sunday morning, July 21st. A young lady with an amazing voice sang the song by Britt Nicole entitled, “Walk on the Water.” In case you’re not familiar with the song, here are the lyrics:
You look around and staring back at you,
Another wave of doubt.
Will it pull you under?
What if I’m overtaken?
What if never make it?
What if no one’s there?
Will you hear my prayer?
When you take that first step into the unknown,
You know that He won’t let you go.
So what are you waiting for?
What do you have to lose?
Your insecurities try to hold to you.
But you know you’re made for more,
So don’t be afraid to move.
Your faith is all it takes and you can
walk on the water, too.
So get out and let your fear fall to the ground.
No time to waste, don’t wait.
And don’t you turn around,
And miss out on everything you were made for.
Gotta be, I know you’re not sure . . . more.
So you play it safe, you try to run away.
If you take that first step into the unknown,
He won’t let you go. (chorus)
Step out, even when it’s storming.
Step out, even when you’re broken.
Step out, even when your heart is telling you,
Telling you to give up.
Step out, when your hope is stolen.
Step out, you can’t see where you’re going.
You don’t have to be afraid.
So what are you waiting, what are you waiting for? (chorus)
I know I was meant to hear that song that morning. However, God wasn’t done. As if that single, bold face exclamation point weren’t enough, God also underlined message #1 through the sermon, complete with visual aids, that proved just as powerful as the song itself. By the end of the service, I knew God was asking me to step out of my comfort zone and do something beyond me. Something I would never, ever consider doing on my own. Something that, logically speaking, makes no sense.
I was so moved by the message that I went back to the identical evening service to soak in more. Imagine my surprise when, the very next Saturday evening, that same message was repeated again — this time through a video shown at an event I was attending over 100 miles away.
So, you see now why I have no doubt God is expecting me to do something I never thought possible. He is expecting me to step out in faith. Believe me, I’ve been praying and searching a lot about what this particular step of faith looks like. After months of crying, agonizing and praying over a situation, this message has encouraged me to go ahead and “step out into the unknown.” For so long I’ve had one foot dangling over the dark, rough waters while I have sat precariously on the edge of the rocky boat, being tossed around and hanging on for dear life. Terrified.
Rumor has it, I have to completely let go of the boat, freeing my hands entirely before God can put something else in its place. So, I’m no longer gripping the boat with all my strength. Instead, I’m standing in the rough waters, ready to let go and take that first step. So, with eyes focused on Jesus, this is the week . . . one, two, three, here I go!